想。跑。

是眼泪  让整个心都垮了
是情绪  让期望折变失望
是惆怅  让自己持续委屈
是自己  让勇气埋藏一角
想逃离这一切  远远的 
好让眼泪流尽  不再与此缠绵
想奔向那自由  辽阔的
好让心灵解放  不再压抑郁闷
想回到家里  回到自己所属于的

怒

一股接着一股的怨气涌上头

怒火燃烧了理智

心中的不屑正嘶吼着

奈何坏情绪不容于形色

深深地把氧气吸进心胸

好让把自己的心胸胀大

冲动往往坏了小事成了大事

事后还不是得忍辱负重

多么难咽的一口气还是得往肚子里吞

何苦何谓何事得如此委屈自己

究根到底还不是自己的胆怯不仁往外一跳

那么一天始早的那么一天

把勇气凝聚于力量

要远去这窒息的逆境

FLIGHT ! ! !

  When my days to take flight come closer, i was felt kinda nervous and insecure. Can't believe that last night i was dream about plane, arghhh...it proved that i was  mental suffering. What a heck! This two days, i was surfing a lot information regards restriction items been prohibited carry on board. And also any term and condition must to know when on board with unchecked baggage especially for such passenger like me.It just because, i wish not to meet any prickly situation. Perhaps it just all about i was alone to flight for first in my life. Kinda blame him why i have to cope with all of these. Well, time to exert my optimistic thought, i am learning to be independent, and all with be fine. I was 24 years old lady that capable enough to face up any circumstances.  Bear in my mind: just act like a mature don't play with kids attitude anymore.Take a deep breath, everything gonna be all right.

  

那么一下下

当 欢乐喧哗退场了
总得把自己抽离其中
收拾好心情 把重心原归工作上
内心的挣扎必须好好调理
把期望寄放下一个期待
循循环环 重覆这步骤


前面的路该怎么走
走的好累 好累
一直寻寻觅觅不切实的归属感
心一直漫无目的地漂浮了
心倦了 正因如此


叹一口长长的气
心灵总得平复下来
说服着自己 再撑着那么一下下
那么一下下 何止那么一下下
就是迷惑着自己 如此的那么一下下


生活还得继续 唯有 见步行步

When afraid to fall...

when afraid to fall, how could fall in love

because of afraid, heart not even open heartily 

for love or to be loved

so called i'm stay under risky condition

to hurt or be hurt

tagged myself as a coward, just because lost of courage to love

each passion last in short term afterward 

compensate with frustration, depression, emotion

next step, how could a likely step should be 

one day two days, one year two years and

ten years, twenty years

will time change any different

afraid it not and 

still the same

practically particular mind was set

so, each my point of view tend to out of track

and color of love always is grey

what am i doing

myself not even able to figure it out

to get rid from own thinking and  

choose to fall? 

but how dare?

to get lost from whose's life

choose to gone?

but how easy?

once again ruin is happening

 because of mine irresolute and hesitant