When afraid to fall...

when afraid to fall, how could fall in love

because of afraid, heart not even open heartily 

for love or to be loved

so called i'm stay under risky condition

to hurt or be hurt

tagged myself as a coward, just because lost of courage to love

each passion last in short term afterward 

compensate with frustration, depression, emotion

next step, how could a likely step should be 

one day two days, one year two years and

ten years, twenty years

will time change any different

afraid it not and 

still the same

practically particular mind was set

so, each my point of view tend to out of track

and color of love always is grey

what am i doing

myself not even able to figure it out

to get rid from own thinking and  

choose to fall? 

but how dare?

to get lost from whose's life

choose to gone?

but how easy?

once again ruin is happening

 because of mine irresolute and hesitant