Friday, August 26, 2011

I LOVE YOU MUM

Once again yearning much for my homeland. 
Why does this feeling beating me frequently?
Sound like I'm just immature, 
alike baby badly urge for well pamper
A call to a mum always keep my heart warm for awhile.
She's most alike my counselor when i was frustrating.
She's most alike my angel when i was sniffing
She's most alike my EVERYTHING when i was NOTHING

In front of her i tend to be pessimistic
Entirely different from the normal days of me
last night i was spoke to her,
along the years my life was running smooth much,
when i was part-timer in Genting,
i had much of friends took care of me
when i was studying in college, 
i had much of friends guided me on study
when i was working in society, 
i had cousins recommended for jobs
those boss,manager and colleagues i met 
was friendly most ever
when i was forcing shift out from a house, 
i had met my owner
extraordinary good-hearted owner
who treat me just like their family too
i did felt grace and grateful 
what i have been encounter for the years

but i was doubting, 
will those goodliness away from me after some years
i figure out that i mostly will be collapse,
i not the kind of tough people
i not well trained to face for
any challenges,difficulties, headache problems....
i just pretty much fragile
when a finger flick a stone to a glass
and it will SMASH to pieces everywhere!

Mum said my thought was ridiculous ,
why i always pre-think those 
haven't happen and perhaps never will happend
yup, her words had woke me up,
now i having my good days,good life
shall not trap myself into darkness
shall prepare myself to a bright future XD

what are words to describe the love from a mother
well, for me it's just wordless
the word shall be only feel within our inner heart
I LOVE YOU MUM
and it always does. 


Wednesday, August 17, 2011

LIFE

there is used to be a couple of time i may trap into miserable thought
gotta no reason why i live for
feel alike a sheep totally lost in the darkness of earth
have no sheepherder guide into right way to home
and was feeling this world is much wider 
shall to feel alone and lone

kinda need some motivate quote or reading
perhaps those words may bring me some strength
fill me energy to step for the next of my life
at least it was the only effective alternative i met


a place for inner peace
where it should be?
conceptually, it should be anywhere
as long as your heart is reached the peace.
but, my heart is drumming right now
mush frustrations play around my heart my mind
it doesn't work ,
no matter how hard i convince myself to be calm
urgh.......headache....desperately it did~

sometimes life does force us into the lifestyle we rather not
so we just take it as our destiny our fate
sometimes life does present us  in pleasant surprise  we rather
so we just be grace that have granted to us
life lost life gained
so called rhythm of life ?

shall make a wish upon to a star: tomorrow will be better day.