要遗忘着 ～

其实真的很不想把这不开心的事写下来，
可是心里一直憋着好烦躁，唯有在这发泄了。

要是可以时光倒流，我宁可与你仅仅是彼此的过客，
与你的回忆多半是悲伤盖过快乐的，
是自己套愚蠢，他人几句美言就轻易地倒在你怀抱里，
我实在太没主见了，这一次做错了选择。

曾经被你视为对的行为，让自己那么委屈，
让自己那么难过，怪自己太在乎你了，
我才明白，被爱是幸福的，
爱着一个人就那么辛苦，
就那么短短着一个月，
你替我上了这么丰富的一个感情课。

该感激？该憎恨？该遗忘？
我挣扎其中。

昨天谈起我一直耿耿于怀的事情，
我还是认为是你的错，
而你却写了那么一句，
“看来我在浪费自己的时间跟你谈”
你这家伙什么态度嘛，
本来就是你的错，
怎么你写了一副不是你错的话，
我心里头很难受，很不开心。

原来我还是那么在乎你的话，
原来我还在乎你会承认是你的错，
告诉自己不可以在乎，
和你的一段就随着雨水渗透到...
不让我发现的地方，
不唤醒回忆的角落，
我抵达不了的部落，
随蒸气消失于空中，
我好想彻彻底底忘了跟你的一切。

这一刻，那么的渴望删除与你的回忆。

Sportive Sunday

   Yesterday, me, osk, Alice and his dear had meet up at Syen's building for a badminton game. We had choosen to go Syen's place due to there was badminton courts available. Before went to Syen's place, i went to Osk's  house for movie and drama transfering to hardisk.Meanwhile, i having herbal chicken soup as well.It was cooked by osk. The taste was neutral if compate to my mum one.haha...
   Before departured to Syen's hostel, i felt lethargy and had no energy for the badminton. Along on the bus, i have yawning for few times. I just wonder not all the saggittarian is sportive one..haha...at least i am the one^^.
   Actually I not talent in the sport even can be say is a dullness >.<''...So, in the beginning i have no confident to play together. However, Syen and the others encouraged and comforted all the way. I felt warmest of it. After take a trial and praticed with Alice, my technique have been improved. Then we started to play in four of doubles, when i can force exerted on the ball to the opponent much satisfied filled in my heart.* winks* But, i did failed many times too..hehe...it was because my eyesight can't judge the actual location while ball flyed thru my site.><''
   When i was sweating till my shirt was wet, such a nostalgic atmosphere within my heart. While looked onto Alice's tomato red face, some memory flashed back into my mind.Missed badly last time the moment we being sweaty all the time. Eg, walked some distance for  Ms.Lam's tuition class, pbsm marching...we walked it under the brightest sky and hottest sun. Why the years passing like an arrow flashing? Now i'm 23 years old,  i just realise it was far away from 17,18 years old.  Anyway i enjoyed with this sportive sunday. Hopefully we may date out oftenly for the sweaty games. haha...
   

Mid-autunm Festival

 To celebrate mid-autumn festival is mean that we are closer to the end of the years. Along the years I have no much impression on it, since me and brothers no longer carry the lantern and light the candles around.
That why my house not infect with the mid-autumn festival atmosphere. However, first year to celebrate this festival in Singapore, i been presented two box of mooncakes by lady-boss. Much thankful for her kind generous. She always let me feel warm by her act. Thanks God ,i have meet her. 
  Last night, dated by Alice, me, Osk and Syen were meet each others at Clarke Quay. Yup, it is my first time been there too. The place features with the river view. We had bought some Taiwan cuisine for shared and standed to eat, you one scope i scope, now reflashing the scene, i felt sort of queasy. >.<''...
However, it was a wonderful night. As promised, coming on this Sunday we going for badminton to burn our fat.haha..Such office lady like us should have some exercise for better body figure. wakaka~~

our selected taiwan cuisinet

 is rabbit lantern

San Guo lantern

:(

 Suddenly because of someone was answering me coldly,

i felt i was hurt.

 May be i just such a fragile girl

 who sensitive much enough thru someone attitude and response.

Blame myself for not to be tough.

Anyway told myself ,a slight unpleasantness

will not overtake me for the whole day.

I wanna end by working day with the happiness.

Being remind by my colleague,
always double check on my work done
at the start will feel that was a sarcastic reminded
however, after thinked twice
she's right since i'm the one really carelss.
told myself
don't because of people comment then
thinked she/he in negative way.

now, it's around the corner to knock off
as i said
i end my working day with happiness
because i'm able to help one colleague
find the differences of balance between book and statement
felt much satisfied and
now is eating sweet potato.

my days turn from :(  to  :). 

 

不知不觉

不知不觉
一个星期即将结束
假日的来临让我觉得空虚
没有上班的日子觉得漫长
心里头叹了长长的气
突然想跳过这个假日

觉得自己好奢侈
白白浪费着假日
我的人生就那么乏味
同时也在意味着
我在挥霍自己的青春

多么想我的世界
是多姿多彩的
多么想我的人生
是愉快充实的
多么想我的青春
留下灿烂的回忆

不知不觉
渡过如此生活的方式
也九个月了
接下来还是一样吗？
大概也是
毕竟不知不觉
成为了一个定律

要改变
要突破不知不觉

Alone...

    This weekend i going to be alone. Not plan to go JB or even church. Thinking now, how should I spend for the two days. I wish i could stay in house since i have to save money. Just that i feel uncomfortable and uneasy myself with the existence of owner's family. In front of them, i am an outsider who come to ruin their family's life. That's why i feel guilty of it  >.<''.  haiz~~ Should be blame myself for not trying to be sociable. However, i have no choice and have to face with it. Such a pathetic!
     Properly watching drama will be my only option to go through my day. Luckily i have a mini notebook, if not i may sit alone and just have day dreaming. So, osk is my saver to lend me her hardisk that saved many dramas.. wakaka^^    
     Anyway, i have to well prepare myself to lead few weeks of weekend with the drama lifestyle until the November.And November will be my wonderful month, early of the month go to KL and end of the month back to hometown. How fully of it ! =D
     Starting now to countown for enjoyable moment to come...

无人的角落

还好有那么一个无人的角落
让我写着自己的心语
毕竟
每个人都有埋藏心底的话
看着文字抒发着自己的心情
感觉就像衷心的朋友替我保守秘密
随心所欲写着，满足着自己的欲望

或许自己不愿跟他人分享
让自己心里憋着许多
满脑袋里自己与自己对话
感觉就像快窒息的小鸟
还好有那么无人的一个角落
好让我透透气
静静地通过文字舒畅

写部落格渐渐地代替
以往写日记的习惯
也好
到了地球每个角落
也能回味着自己的点滴

还好那么一个无人的角落
让我自己做回自己

A relaxing raya holiday =D

    I had spent my raya holiday (3 days 2 night) by followed my cousin went to JB,Kulai.

Felt so relaxing for those few days, i can even more feel the taste of home sweet home.

It had been reducing my homesick. The house fullness with kids' hearty laughter but also the cry.

I just wonder whether all the kids use to fight at each others? haha...

    Those kids are my nephew and niece, they are 8yrs old (boy),6 yrs old(girl) and 2yrs old(boy). Most of the time, the eldest nephew and niece like to stick with me. May be they thought that i nice to bully since i never scold them badly.haha...

   I guess such an impatient person may escape from the situation. Because you may heart attack thru their ridiculous and great "creation". It started with the toilet's drain has clogged, and cousin has reminded the monster boy don't use too much water during bathing.Who knows, he let the bathroom flooded and treat it as a swimming pool and having some funs there.Without consciousness water has overflowed to the part of dining room. And this moment, cousin turn to irritated and monster has scolded badly and has instrusted to clean up for the mess. Wau...little kids is a bomb, nobody can know what they do for the next second. God bless me, in the future i wish that my kid is one who be obedient all the time.haha~
    Much thankful for my aunty too, traditional "teochew dumpling" that she homemaded really delicious. It has satisfied my cravings much enough. Somemore she has boiled " aloe vera tang shui", said that it much helpful for my  pimples face. And feel sweet she asked me bring some to Singapore. I like the way she treat me, =D
   Thanks God for sent me many angels to assist and love in my life. I do feel blessed for all i have around me.
   
    

粗心还是大意

是粗心还是大意
被说了怎么没发现错误的存在
就这么一句让我很沮丧了
问自己好几次
是自己的粗心，是自己的大意吗？
真的是自己没留心检查吗？
怎么又会是自己犯错了
老板娘是否会因此事
而贬低我的工作能力？
一大堆疑问涌进脑海里
好纳闷
一直替自己找借口
好让自己从错误边缘溜过
但，不能
究竟是自己做错了

好想自己是能干的
好想自己是细心的

还好他的鼓励与安慰
给我带来了释怀
给我带来了动力
又一次
他拯救我的快乐了

对自己说：工作态度多认真些就可以把事情做好了！

*明天会更好*

New Chapter of tmy's life

wau...can't believe there were seven months

i  been working in singapore

can't deny that my life was more enjoyful than before 

here i have my close friends been frolic together

even a lunch,a dinner, a movie

i love to be with them

it's kind of amazing relationship

when moment been fun is a way to warm up

when moment been cry is a way to strengthen

my friends is apart of my life

i do appreciate what they put in for me

we always talk about after marry,after 10 yeras++

still we do the samethings like now

syen say:sure, just beside us may exist some little kids

and them would greet us as aunty...haha!

still remember well the first few days in singapore

share room with the strangers

 three others roomates and landlord's daughter

they were quite friendly,quite caring to me

thanks God i was blessed all the time

even little trouble do occur and i have to move out

but luckily to meet a lady with angel-hearted

her family taken me stay with them

and because of them

i have a shelter

much grateful to them.

sometime i do miss my family too

but comfort myself that with the money i have earned

i can bring them for a better life

so just wait patiently for the day i went back home

and

the new chapter of my life is great! =D 

one of the gathering,reflection from the mirror.

幻想

幻想
是厌倦现实了吗
是思维倒退了吗
总有那么一刻
爱着幻想

幻想着
电视剧电影里
那浪漫的爱情
抱着一丝希望
相信那天也会发生在自己身上
陶醉着
男主角般深情款款的模样
眷恋着
男主角刻苦铭心的追求手段
品尝着
男主角专情专一的甜言密语

幻想着
种种妙想天开的情景

看来
是自己不够成熟