FLIGHT ! ! !

  When my days to take flight come closer, i was felt kinda nervous and insecure. Can't believe that last night i was dream about plane, arghhh...it proved that i was  mental suffering. What a heck! This two days, i was surfing a lot information regards restriction items been prohibited carry on board. And also any term and condition must to know when on board with unchecked baggage especially for such passenger like me.It just because, i wish not to meet any prickly situation. Perhaps it just all about i was alone to flight for first in my life. Kinda blame him why i have to cope with all of these. Well, time to exert my optimistic thought, i am learning to be independent, and all with be fine. I was 24 years old lady that capable enough to face up any circumstances.  Bear in my mind: just act like a mature don't play with kids attitude anymore.Take a deep breath, everything gonna be all right.

  

那么一下下

当 欢乐喧哗退场了
总得把自己抽离其中
收拾好心情 把重心原归工作上
内心的挣扎必须好好调理
把期望寄放下一个期待
循循环环 重覆这步骤


前面的路该怎么走
走的好累 好累
一直寻寻觅觅不切实的归属感
心一直漫无目的地漂浮了
心倦了 正因如此


叹一口长长的气
心灵总得平复下来
说服着自己 再撑着那么一下下
那么一下下 何止那么一下下
就是迷惑着自己 如此的那么一下下


生活还得继续 唯有 见步行步

When afraid to fall...

when afraid to fall, how could fall in love

because of afraid, heart not even open heartily 

for love or to be loved

so called i'm stay under risky condition

to hurt or be hurt

tagged myself as a coward, just because lost of courage to love

each passion last in short term afterward 

compensate with frustration, depression, emotion

next step, how could a likely step should be 

one day two days, one year two years and

ten years, twenty years

will time change any different

afraid it not and 

still the same

practically particular mind was set

so, each my point of view tend to out of track

and color of love always is grey

what am i doing

myself not even able to figure it out

to get rid from own thinking and  

choose to fall? 

but how dare?

to get lost from whose's life

choose to gone?

but how easy?

once again ruin is happening

 because of mine irresolute and hesitant

不堪

曾几何时 我的快乐 演变成他的快乐
然而 我的悲伤 也成为了他的悲伤
所谓的另一半 就是这么 同感深受吗
曾经妄想着童话般甜蜜缠绵的爱情
然而 回到现实中曾经的并不切实际
往往之中被理想化的情绪涌涌作祟
抱着一副女王般的性格维持着关系
有的是权力 任性 被融让
到最后回首这一切什么都不堪
只因为被对方深爱着 开始放肆
逐渐遗忘自我也有该履行的本分
也应该对对方付出自己的爱
两个人的爱情有如就站在平行线上
每当他跨一步同时 自己也应该紧接向前迈向一步
彼此之间的距离不是仅仅靠单方面的
以往的我一贯抱着无所谓的态度维持着
太多的太多得顾虑 他的她的意见得在乎
卸不下忐忑的心房坦然地彻底地去爱
无数次的放弃换来了挽回
无数次的胡闹换来了容忍
也许再下一个无数次不再是无数了
我依然 反反复复 恍恍惚惚
下一步 我该怎么走

不成熟篇

空气的气息总是袮漫着家的味道

大概我又在想家了吧

那天弟弟对我说：

“外头工作那么久还没学习到成熟哦”

嗯，我回答了：

“我工作的时候也很认真的”

哈哈，弟弟叹了一口长气

并说着：“你抓不到我要表达的”

我说：“我没上过大学，不了解大学生的话语”

啥么幼稚的辩解嘛，哈哈，要改要改～

其实内心一想，大概也对吧，我真的很不成熟

或许得扯上人生经历相提并论吧

从离校，工作，离家

这一切都有旁人扶持着

我一直依赖着她们所预备的

难免在思维上举止上实在地

大大方方表现着我二十四该表现的

说成熟怎能就成熟嘛

弟弟表示着多阅读能思考的书籍

哪一刻我能开始采取行动改变呢？

对自己结论着今年生日以后吧

哈哈，此刻我还是以不成熟心态

完成此短篇 XD