未来

我的未来

就像那不曾到来的冬天

仅仅在睡梦中捏造自己梦寐的

却 不知道冬天的感觉 气息

却 不知晓未来的滋味 抱负

要付出 才有结果

自古以来激励的话语

可是付出过程中

种种煎熬是我能迎刃而解的吗

我就像那挂在树上快枯黄的叶

哪怕一阵风的飘过 轻易地

 把我吹落  随着风的摆布

直到无形的地心引力

把我狠狠地引向落地 

任由大自然的旋律 消失此中

尚在绿叶枯萎前

应该拼命坚决的向生命挑战吗

绿叶是可以开会结果的

绿叶也可以发芽长枝的

残酷的风风雨雨是催化剂

督促着促使着无时无刻

绿叶应该无畏的成长

这一刻 下一刻

绿叶标榜着我的人生

何去何从提醒着

生命有期限

该成长 该茂盛

替身边人 提供着

遮荫乘息的角落

海阔凭鱼跃 天高任鸟飞

今天的气息 我是感受着

未来的气息 我是筹备着

                                                            阳光 是那不放弃的鼓励

Piss off ~~

When someone’s attitude is tendency aggressive, will you consider he/she as “inner heart attacker”. One awhile he/she is talkative, but after a time he/she is avoid to talk. For me, it does. This lead in mentally hurtful than physically!

Well, perhaps everyone have their right to release their emotion, I named as emo. But, I will not show my emo onto the others; especially someone have no close relationship with me. Basically, it’s a mutual-respect.

How suffocate of me! When both stay in a room, the silent is beating around the air. And, that moment, I still have to act like nothing happened.

Recently, I have no idea why the one treat me this way. Am I over sensitive in this case?

After been observed few days, I was sure the one is showing dissatisfied onto me.

Try to avoid me from everything till I was feeling disgusting, grumbling towards the lousy attitude. Feel want to shout out loudly “you not a child anymore！”

Fire won’t start by it own! So, I tried to refresh hardly what had I done until I was able to figure out the actual reasons.

Is it about the jealousy? Will it be in the aspects of social or presentation work or this or that? ish……..i just guess blindly here.

Nothing I can do, I will just be myself. You talk to me, and I will answer you as well.

Try to convince myself don’t even try to strike back instead both of us trap into unbearable situation. So, it’s time to show off my pacifism. INNER～　ＰEACE～

Shall looking forward my days to home. Afterwords, shall make a decision on my study plan, days attend to class may reduce future conflicts to minimum point.

These days, just endure as maximum as I can. Peace……….

I LOVE ＹＯＵ ＭＵＭ

Once again yearning much for my homeland. 

Why does this feeling beating me frequently?

Sound like I'm just immature, 

alike baby ｂａｄｌｙ urge for well pamper

A call to a mum always keep my heart warm for awhile.

She's most alike my counselor when i was frustrating.

She's most alike my angel when i was sniffing

She's most alike my EVERYTHING when i was NOTHING

In front of her i tend to be pessimistic

Entirely different from the normal days of me

last night i was spoke to her,

along the years my life was running smooth much,

when i was part-timer in Genting,

i had much of friends took care of me

when i was studying in college, 

i had much of friends guided me on study

when i was working in society, 

i had cousins recommended for jobs

those boss,manager and colleagues i met 

was friendly most ever

when i was forcing shift out from a house, 

i had met my owner

extraordinary good-hearted owner

who treat me just like their family too

i did felt grace and grateful 

what i have been encounter for the years

but i was doubting, 

will those goodliness away from me after some years

i figure out that i mostly will be collapse,

i not the kind of tough people

i not well trained to face for

any challenges,difficulties, headache problems....

i just pretty much fragile

when a finger flick a stone to a glass

and it will SMASH to pieces everywhere!

Mum said my thought was ridiculous ,

why i always pre-think those 

haven't happen and perhaps never will happend

yup, her words had woke me up,

now i having my good days,good life

shall not trap myself into darkness

shall prepare myself to a bright future XD

what are words to describe the love from a mother

well, for me it's just wordless

the word shall be only feel within our inner heart

I LOVE　ＹＯＵ　ＭＵＭ

ａｎｄ　ｉｔ　ａｌｗａｙｓ　ｄｏｅｓ．　

LIFE

there is used to be a couple of time i may trap into miserable thought

gotta no reason why i live for

feel alike a sheep totally lost in the darkness of earth

have no sheepherder guide into right way to home

and was feeling this world is much wider 

shall to feel alone and lone

kinda need some motivate quote or reading

perhaps those words may bring me some strength

fill me energy to step for the next of my life

at least it was the only effective alternative i met

a place for inner peace

where it should be?

conceptually, it should be anywhere

as long as your heart is reached the peace.

but, my heart is drumming right now

mush frustrations play around my heart my mind

it doesn't work ,

no matter how hard i convince myself to be calm

urgh.......headache....desperately it did~

sometimes life does force us into the lifestyle we rather not

so we just take it as our destiny our fate

sometimes life does present us  in pleasant surprise  we rather

so we just be grace that have granted to us

life lost life gained

so called rhythm of life ?

shall make a wish upon to a star: tomorrow will be better day.

Faith . fading...........

my faith onto you is fading

aint about the days you're hypocritical

if you're, I would like you hide it into the darkness

and please don't even let me know any clue about it

it just all about how to play smart in this game

keep away to express your frankness to me

I would like be the one you've lied till the end

keep sighing…….

why, years after years you let me knew the truth

perhaps you can't accept who I am

but it just the way who I was

cold nostalgia chills me to be bone

feel alike drenched in desperation

those beautiful memory with you

is ruining right now right here

it's coming down down down

how should I keep my faith onto you

how should I thru the next second with you

the sun goes down the stars come out

I still lost in my ways

thinking about us what had gonna be

and now,

I don't even know what kind of things I said

sick of all insincere

isn't myself was among the one too

well….take a deep breath

steady my mind, make all rights

time passing could figure out the new guideline