无奈

因为在乎

眼泪才有机可乘

把心中压抑的悲伤

最终 化为泪水

在脸上画下无奈

曾经误以为你会改变

带着一点关怀让你窝心

曾经苦口婆心对你唠叨
抱着一线希望你能听进心里

到最后你还是打回原形

继续沉迷你的游戏世界

 好想对你不闻不问

好想对你于世隔绝

无奈 血浓于水

你是我的家人 何于忍心呢

痛恨自己为何那么在乎

你一贯性的

如此堕落 如此任性

忽视爸妈的感受

滥用爸妈的宠爱

为所欲为你觉得对的事

难道你忘了他们的付出吗？

难道你不心疼他们两老吗？

何时你才觉悟？

何时让爸妈对你除去担忧？

心疼你好好的一个人

为何有如此下落，

做好本分有那么难吗？

面对你 心很疼 很无奈

Questioning…….

A string of questions spinning in my mind

Am I suit to survive in current field,

Since I just such a careless person,

Always can’t perform well on my task….

Account unbalance frequently ruins me

Feel depressive on myself =(

Where is my circumspection?

Where is my precaution?

Where is the knowledge impacted by lectures?

Keep questioning keep sighing~~

 

 why not myself take initiative ask someone to guide me?

why not myself learn something new during free time? 

why not myself be motivate all the time?

why not myself have ambitious like friend has?

why the others can carry well but not me?

why i only know crying in the heart?

so foolish of me.....

so failure of me.......

 

with such limited account skills,

i wonder how long can i survive in this company?

without guideline how to complete my task?

urggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh.........

i'm exhausted keep questioning myself.

 

i'm not a tough person

i desire an angle beside with me all the time

and settle what i have to face.

;(

 

Imagine that...

today,saturday...

after half day work

will meet buddy for lunch,

then come an idea go to seaside

imagine that

wind come to me

i saw smile on my buddy

cold nostalgic chills within me

yup...much we had been though

i not alone because of them

imagine that

wind come to me

papa and mama walk along the beach

feel blissful my parents can rest from work

desperately wish them can lead an enjoyable life

immensenly grateful for their sacrified

imagine that

wind come to me

 i have u beside me

and i look my hands

your fingers perfectly fit

the spaces between my fingers

and i know

you the one i loved

Depressive Day !!

Wau..such a headche moment i been though on today...
it was just because i busy for the account transactions to be complete for month end.
i was suffering repeated setbacks, sign for debit and credit on account treatment totatlly depressed me.
i blamed myself for the mistake had done, how come i can be so careless,
even detail is wrtten for me to key in, but i still wrong with it....what the hell i'm doing!
i can't judge what account should be trade in for the transaction,
i don't know what transaction should be do for the month end adjustment, and
i just have blank mind for the account done........i'm just useless who don't know everything..haiz~~
if i lost my superior guide me for it, early of time i can't survive in this company,and
compulsory acc head fired me. such a great failure am i at this moment. *sight~~~~~
where is my concentration, where is my circumspection, where is my account knowledge....
i lost all of them, how should i let them surrounded me...urge to need them badly.

Improvement on myself , right now, right here~~

流浪

好想流浪

我的心情

随着清风四处旅行

把爱，把恨

调至于平衡点

只想

轻轻松松像风一样

无重力无牵挂

好想流浪

我的心情

随着大海四处漂流

把烦恼，把思绪

由海浪卷走

只想

潇潇洒洒像海一样

熊涛汹涌以后

也有风平浪静的时刻

流浪。。

流浪我的心情吧！